Saturday, January 29, 2011

The Winds of Change...

Can you smell them? Can you hear them? I can. My heart is starting to flutter because it knows what is happening. The winds of change are starting to blow. Austin and I are rapidly approaching the day when we step away from the safe confines of Tallahassee and college into the great big world of adults. (Yes, technically, I have already made that step, BUT having my husband and a lot of my friends still in college makes it feel like I haven't). We don't know yet where these winds are going to blow us. We could be blown as close as Jacksonville or as far away as Costa Mesa, California. We are just beginning to feel the slight breeze. We are starting to see the leaves on the ground stirring slightly. The rustle of the trees is barely audible. We know the winds are coming. It is hard to say how long they will take to begin blowing full force.
Truth be told, I hate change. I always have. Growing up in the military, change meant moving away from my friends, my school, everything I was comfortable with and starting over. It meant going through the arduous process of packing up the house. Then it meant going through the equally arduous process of unpacking the house. It meant going to a new school where I didn't know a soul. Knowing that once again, I was going to be that annoying smart new girl. It meant going through the painstaking process of finding a new church and building all new relationships. In short, I hate change.
Right now, however, I am excited. When I think about the possibilities ahead of us, I get the tingling feeling that it is going to be amazing. I am excited about the prospect of a whole new adventure with my husband. I am excited about the prospect of establishing ourselves somewhere as a couple. Of meeting new friends who only know us as a married couple, not as single people who recently got married.
Austin has several interviews coming up in February, the most exciting of which is in California. I am currently studying for the GRE, preparing to go for my masters in English Literature. (That adventure probably won't begin until Fall of 2012 at the earliest, but I am beginning the preparation process).

For right now, we are just enjoying the early signs of those winds of change and dreaming of where we might end up.